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I’ve been doing a lot of thinking the past few weeks and I’ve decided that Novel 1 is going to be shelved once and for all.
I will not be subbing it again.
I will keep it but it’ll be for my eyes only.
When I wrote Novel 1, it was a form of therapy. I put a lot of ‘me’ into the story, into the characters too, and I think it’s maybe just a little bit too personal to get published. I was going through a particularly nasty time when I started writing it and I saw the novel as a form of revenge. Not good. Definitely not good. That’s not the right reason to write a novel. I wrote my feelings and thoughts as if they were the main character’s. I think it did me the world of good personally to get things written down, but its not necessarily going to make the novel publishable.
I was speaking to a friend the other day and we got talking about my Novels. It was she who made me realise that Novel 1 was just for my eyes… it was only ever meant for my eyes. It was my way of coping through a difficult time. I got caught up in the wonderful world of trying to get published when I got in contact with other writers, that I couldn’t see that Novel 1 wasn’t right. It was too personal, for crying out loud it’s like a blooming diary in some chapters.
I first started thinking Novel 1 was too personal for publication when I started seeing my boyfriend. He asked to read it and suddenly I felt so strange. I realised I didn’t want him to read it because it contained too much personal detail about an ex. It was at that exact moment that I realised I didn’t want anyone to read it. I told my boyfriend it contained too much detail of a previous relationship and since then my boyfriend hasn’t dared mention Novel 1 again.
And I don’t blame him.
I’ve learnt to stop writing about personal stuff. I’ve done that. I’ve moved on. I don’t need to write novels as therapy anymore. Luckily, I’ve realised this in time for none of my other novels are personal like Novel 1. So I will work on the rest and forget about Novel 1.
I do feel sad that it’s come to this. But in other ways I feel free. Like I really have moved on. I’ve got a fresh start. And I’m going to make the most of it.
Emily Tootsweet. :o)