It is one thing to read about love, write about it in blog posts that are of 500-750 words and it another thing to write love stories of 5000 words at least… and that too 20 of them! Writing a book was a dream come true for me. It felt like finally I could see a destination and I had to run to reach it. Till now I wrote for the pure pleasure of writing, but now suddenly I had a lot of other thoughts bogging me down because of which the initial first few months were “no progress”. I barely managed to scribble one or two stories.
Writing for the joy it brings
And it left me frustrated and disillusioned. I felt like a failure, not worthy of being a writer. On one such lonely night as I kept cursing myself did I finally find the reason for my mental state! The reason was very simple, I wasn’t writing for the joy of writing as I was feeling the pressure. That had taken away the pleasure I used to have every time I conjured a story. That night I wrote not one but 2 stories with outlines for 6. Finally, it was the beginning!
Night after night I would try to recreate the magic of love, with carefully chosen words, editing, re-editing, writing, re-writing. I began to fall in love yet another time, this time with love, the whole idea of being in love. Sometimes I would wake up in the middle of the night with an idea brimming in my mind only to forget it by the time I managed to locate a pen and paper. At other times I would stare endlessly at a blank word document unable to write a single word.
The journey of a writer
But I guess that is the journey of every writer, for a novel holds within those carefully etched words lots of dreams, tons of sleepless nights, heaps of hope and loads of unspoken words as they keep looking for an escape route all the time from the deep realms of your heart and soul.
As I finished writing this book, I left it unattended for three days for I had reached that level of despair where I couldn’t face it any longer. But after three days when I re-opened it I couldn’t believe what I saw. In the story, there lay hearts bared while other souls heard their stories.
I wanted this book to be dipped in love and hence gave it a unique touch by writing a poem before every story; each poem setting a tone to the story drenched in love.
I smiled as I saw the book before clicking send for I knew now I had written purely for the joy of writing, and it reflecting in each and every word. The magic of romance had played its charm once again and the stories were dancing to the tune of a lovelorn heart.
Image credit: Lidyanne Aquino on flickr and reproduced under Creative Commons 2.0[author] [author_image timthumb=’on’]https://writingtipsoasis.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/02/Namrata.png[/author_image] [author_info]Namrata is the author of Metro Diaries and a contributing author to various anthologies. She is the editor for Writer’s Ezine, a columnist at Estrade and a reviewer for various publishing houses. You can reach her through Facebook: (www.facebook.com/wingstomywords)
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